Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Just a Little Check-In!

Hello lovelies!! Just a little check in. I had decided to put blogging down for some time and I truly loved meeting you all online and appreciate all of you who have followed along thus far! Just to let you know, in the meantime of my absence, you all can follow me on Instagram at Bbutterfly0108
Bible studies, coffee and books, experiences and life in general!

Hope to see you soon!

Friday, May 31, 2013

Been MIA! Thank you all for the Prayers!

Hi there Lovelies! Yes, I have been MIA for a little bit while dealing with health dilemmas and trying to get through. I wanted to let you all know, I'm am doing my best to get back into the "norm" and I have LOTS of posts coming up very soon! Thank you all so very much for amazing encouragement and your support from my last post "What would you do if you may not be healthy".
Thanks again and I'll see you very soon!

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

What would you do if you may not be healthy?

I'm grabbing my coffee and my journaling book along with my Bible... I have alot to say today...

What about your children, your husband, your parents and friends, everyone you are contacted with everyday of your life? What do you say to teachers, acquaintances and neighbors? Would you have already talked to God? Would you ask Him why, or ask Him for strength? How would you stay strong and hopeful in the eyes of your children and what if you have kids that are too young to understand and old enough that you don't want them to worry. I don't want pity or sorrow from others. I also don't want to use health issues as an excuse, a "woe me" story. I just want this to go away! But at the same time, I want people to understand why I'm not feeling like talking, why I've forgotten to send piano lesson and lunch money, why my child has missed choir practice and trying to keep up with my youngest. People don't STOP and think, what if this lady might be going through something or having a hard time. If you forget something or don't do what someone thinks you should, they're automatically and immediately judging and condescending. When you see or talk to someone who is seemingly rude, short or irritating, anything that you just don't like, PLEASE remember that you NEVER know what in the world God is allowing that person to walk through...

Each and every doctor's appointment, testing, medicine, restrictions, etc. are an everyday obstacle to climb over and those are the obstacles that are sometimes easiest. I find myself becoming devoured in fear and anticipation. So excuse the crap out of me if I don't answer you right away, forget to send in that darn check or my child's hair isn't brushed! Excuse me if I have no make up on and I'm sporting the Medusa look! I obviously don't answer to you and while I'm looking like I belong in the jungle, I am TRYING to be patient with God and praying to get out of something you just don't understand. And when someone rambles on about their absolutely wonderful fortune, exciting vacation and proud announcements of their life, believe me, I am happy for them. But, I'm not going to jump in excitement, that is very hard to do. I have to realize that not everyone knows there is something wrong with someone else, its almost like they "just don't know any better".

But I'm also frustrated! Its not that I don't care, I just can't right now. And I HATE hearing about other people's little complaints and instigations, scuffles and childish dramatizations with other people. I don't want everyone to know everything going on with me, but then I want to SCREAM to these people, "HEY! Your trivial crap and drama are so minuscule and a waste of time! Spend your life caring for things of utmost importance!"

Of course, as human nature I ask myself why. My talks with God have been expression of concern and worry, praying for a solution and overall positive ending. Time races by then painfully slows. Does your mind run wild and crazy when thinking and pondering on the possibilities of serious illness that you may never get out of? Who will care for your children?; no one the way you do, as a Mother, of course. What will your Husband do, if he loses his wife? Do you need to make a plan, legalize documents, inform the children... What do you do?

I honestly can say, I just don't know. When the heart races and exhaustion waves in and takes over, it's very hard to be logical sometimes. Everything becomes a blur and its on a prayer that you  make it another day, another day of praying and waiting, completing one test after the other. Trying to stay away from the questions of people around you because its so scary and stressful to talk about.

 I was in the waiting room at our local Breast Center and this lovely older lady came over to me. Its very obvious of my anxiousness and concern for my visit. She says to me, "I know you're worried... I'm requesting prayer for you on my Church prayer list." She continues to tell me, "You look much too young to be in here dear. May I ask how old you are?" Through tears, I was able to muster a simple response of, "I'm 27", and I trembled and bit my lip to prevent these irritating tears that I have felt too much of! The expression is of surprise and compassion, she leans for a very heartfelt hug and says, "You're so young!  But it's okay, He will take care of this!" Of course, this definitely helps and comforts, but being a human, it lasts for just a little while.

What some may not realize is, I may have multiple very serious problems that are trying to be brought to surface, regarding my health. I could have multiple diagnoses that are completely separate and would have very serious treatment options. This is a little journey I have very recently began and I have an amazing family and doctor, to work closely with and praying to have solutions very soon!

I looked up some Scripture, hoping to get some sort of ease and optimism from. Maybe one or some of you reading this can possibly get some comfort from these Verses out of our Lord's messages to us...

Matthew 6:34  Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Matthew 11:28-30  Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Luke 12:25 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his  span of life?
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you;my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you.Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
Colossians 3:15 And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.
2 Thessalonians 3:16  Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all.
Psalm 55:22  Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved
Proverbs 12:25 Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.
Philippians 4:6-7  do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
1 Peter 5:7 casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
Isaiah 43:1-3  But now thus says the LORD, he who created you, O Jacob,  he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you;  I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;  and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you.
Hebrews 13:6 So we can confidently say,  “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?”
Psalm 46:10  Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations,  I will be exalted in the earth!”
Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.
Psalm 121:1-2  I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth.
Proverbs 3:5-6   Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
I don't know about y'all, but "not worrying" is just a tad bit of a challenge for me. I believe God knows this, however, it is in our very best interest and heart that we really learn to let it go and let Him just take it from our hands and our heads so we can sleep, play and live... 

I also want to share some points of worrying...
*Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow. It empties today of its strength.

*I’ll give you some symptoms of a sign that your faith is deteriorating–whenever you face all of your problems and you trust only your plans to get you out–it is a sign that your faith is deteriorating.

*No one can pray and worry at the same time.

*Knowing that God is faithful, it really helps me to not be captivated by worry. But knowing that He will do what He has said, He will cause it to happen, whatever He has promised, and then it causes me to be less involved in worrying about a situation.

*Worry is the sin of distrusting the promise and providence of God, and yet it is a sin that Christians commit perhaps more frequently than any other.

Honestly, I have no idea where to go from here, as I'm still waiting! A lot of times, the waiting game is excruciating. I don't know what, if anything, to tell my children. I prefer to worry them as less as possible at least until there is a definite and pinpointed outcome and lots of information. I could possibly have false positives, side-effects of things much less serious, this could all have a great turnout or less evasive problem. Everything could just possibly turn out "normal" or "okay"... I do not know!... All I know to do right now, and I recommend this to you as well, is to TRY to let Him take it, PRAY constantly, LIVE and PLAY as if today just will not end! Remember to always talk and express your feeling and concerns with your family and people closest to you, that you feel comfortable with. I had already decided that no details will be shared until ALL information is in and confirmed, this is how I'm coping and basically holding my breath. Mentally preparing to take this head on and just figure it out a day at a time. I can't tell you anything else and I can't even tell myself anything other than these things. I honestly do not know what happening tomorrow, Friday, next week and so on. God knows and I'm just putting my hands together and letting Him know I'm patiently waiting!

Also during this time, I have temporarily discontinued taking cake orders, but I have found myself enjoying my sewing projects as well as cooking, reading and playing with my children. Its very exciting that I opened an Etsy shop before all this, so I try to get some things done there as well...

Please let me know your thoughts and coping preferences if you too are facing serious trials. I'd love for you to share how your family works together, how you express yourself and even your favorite Scriptures, quotes, etc.

Remember it is usually best to express!

Share away and I hope to have maybe inspired while expressing myself as well. If no on reads this, that's okay, because I always need creative expression and blogging allows this, without judgement!

Thank you SO much for sharing a few moments of your day with me.


Monday, May 13, 2013

My Etsy Boutique~

Hi everyone!

I have been extremely busy with life, children and health lately! I opened my Etsy Shop a few days ago and I'm just working with getting everything uploaded and descriptions completed! I hand make everything, so I don't have a huge stock, however I can customize just about ANYTHING! I also have a few of these listed on my Facebook page.

I love little girls and making adorable and glamorous dance/dress up clothing for little ladies! Please come by my shop, be a "favoriter/follower/liker, etc. and I'd love for you to share my shop! I absolutely LOVE supporters and encouragement from all of my bloggy/mommy/wifey friends out here in the world wide web!

 Every single item is VERY well made and cared for, plus can be special made for you! As sales come in, I will be adding more! I'm hoping this shop will grow and everyone will enjoy and love my merchandise for their little girls!

Also, I am in the plans of offering sales on my FB page on certain days of the week! You can post "sold" on ones you want for your daughter, niece, God-daughter, Granddaughter, friend, etc. and I would just send you over a PayPal invoice, then ship! Easy-Peasy!!

Thank you for coming by and please remember to follow me and check out my Etsy!

Have a blessed day!

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Crock Pot Italian Chicken and Veggies!

       I wanted to share one of my family's favorite recipes! My crock pot Italian chicken is super easy, delicious and very healthy. We are primarily organic home, minimal meat especially reds. Most of us Mommies and Wives love a quick and wholesome homemade meal (the Hubbies do too!), so here it is!...

This recipe is very lenient, so whatever veggies or quantity is totally your call.

 I get at least 3 thick boneless and skinless chicken breasts and 3 small russet potatoes (I have also used Yukon and red skins-all turn out delish!) My husband's favorite Italian dressing is Annie's. Its in the organic aisle at Kroger.

Chop up your pots and you can grab a hand full or so of baby carrots or chop 2 whole carrots... Whatever fancies you. :)

Put the chicken in the crock-pot, grab your Italian dressing and pour a bit on the chicken. Then throw in your veggies and pour more dressing, making sure to drench everything. I usually use about 1/2 to 1/3 of the bottle (definitely use more if you prefer, or less). As the chicken cooks, the juices and dressing will mix together beautifully and will make almost like a hearty and scrumptious gravy!

I set my crock on medium at about 9am and it cooks until 5pm. At 4:30pm I start my biscuits and throw an extra pot of steamed broccoli or green beans on the stove.

These homemade biscuits are A-MAY-ZING and top secret... Sorry, its a long time family recipe and I can't share the deets, but you can get a glimpse at a couple ingredients. ;)

They don't rise and I make them kind of bite-sized because my children LOVE them this way! They gobble and slop these things up every time, so I usually make two batches.

My husband started digging in before I could get my shot of the plate, but here it is. Its yummy and give it a try one night!

Let me know how yours turns out!

Have a blessed day!